By: Bobby L.
The Attempt on my own life.
In 2013 I attempted on taking my own life. At that moment I did not care who will be affected by it. Everything was a complete blur. It was as if everything went completely black. It was a very sad place.
The doctors and nurses were working so hard to save my life. Even though I wanted to die. I felt absolutely helpless and hopeless.
Before I was wheeled into my own room I was treated by a nurse who happened to be a neighbor of mine and who helped my mother in previous years with her knee replacements. I was thinking “Is this a joke”. God saved my life and He is putting people in my life to help me. In my room I was greeted by a friend of mine who I not seen for over 30 years. I said to him “You know me. I have never did anything like this.” He said to me, “You hit rock bottom. So the only direction for you to go is UP”.
This disability I have is a mood disorder called “Bipolar Mixed.” There is a recent as of the date f this letter is called “Bipolar Depression”.
Due to the passing of my sister from cervical cancer, caused me to fall into this Depression state.
Coping Skills are used in ways to manage my symptoms.
These are the following skills I use:
1) Focalization – Shape of my Hand.
2) Listen to Music
3) Go for a Walk
4) Remove myself from the situation
5) Deep Breathing
6) Focus on Body Muscle Groups
I was in a situation where job distribution was taking place. Many people were speaking at the same time. So I made a walk towards my counselor and I did Deep Breathing to calm my emotions. Within minutes my mood changed.
I do hope my letter/journal help you to know my diagnosis alongside of knowing myself.
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